Reenter reclaim revitalize recreate reinvent and live your renewed life
Although my life-story is nothing like — the heart-touching movie “It’s a Wonderful Life”.
I keep exiting and reentering many aspects of life because of disrupting-changes — in totally new professional-personal-relationships-financial-physical zones.
Reentry into the world of repeatedly making stupid-mistakes and making it up
1. I used to ask in my training programs and workshops and counseling-session — Have you made any stupid-mistake — most would say Yes — then I would ask — have you made a stupid-mistake — after telling yourself that you will not make it again — now some may say Yes — I would again ask — have you made a stupid-mistake after taking resolve that no matter-what you will not repeat the mistake — yet you made that mistake.
2. Now it seems I am living that life — I trust easily and take people at their face-value and I seems to be helping wrong-people and trusting wrong-persons.
Reentry into marital-relationship after 15 years
1. I got married at the 32 and lost my wife almost 1 and half year later to an accident — leaving my daughter with me who was 6 months at that time.
2. Then I remained single for next 14+ years — by being with my daughter, my niece, my sister and my parents.
3. I did raise my daughter and nice — although my method of strict-parenting was not only wrong way of parenting but also created more emotional-insecurity issues in both my daughter and niece although all it was with good intent only.
4. After almost 15 years I happened to go to Singapore for a business-conference — and met this lady who invited me on the 2nd day to her house for dinner — we made love and then soon got married.
5. It turnout to be financially-professionally-personally-emotionally-mentally and relationship-wise very-very traumatic and impacted all of us very badly.
6. Almost all my sensual-relationships — ended in extreme pain [but still I keep searching for a compatible woman Still am]- but most of them triggered and made me start and create something meaningful in totally different fields — except the last one — which actually made me stop recording YouTube videos after 1 year of uploading 250+ videos.
Reentry as a son TO my mother — after my father’s death
1. My father’s death — I reflected on my relationship with him and what he did for me. I found that — because of my teenage mindset [which I still happen to retain some] — I used to become irritated with him very-frequently and regularly.
2. But now after I experienced relationship with my daughter — I found to my sadness — that my father was the most loving and caring person — it was I who misunderstood him and it was I who hurt him.
3. Then I was able to relate-recognize-appreciate all his contributions and sacrifices he made for me AND I could also realize all the wrongs I did to him and how many ways I hurt and disappointed him.
4. As a result — I am able understand my mother who is 89 and are able to treat my mother with great compassion and care and I have also become extremely conscious as not to repeat those mistakes I did with my father.
5. How I recognize the same elements of my own behavior in my daughter — to start appreciating my daughter and my niece
6. Which made me appreciate How my daughter and nieces — love and care — for me — although superficially it may not be oblivious
Reentry into sexual-physical life AND sustaining it at 59
1. After the death of my 1st wife — I never even toughed a woman for almost 15 years.
2. But at almost 50 when I married for the 2nd time — I could understand my healthy-libido and how I can turn the physical-relationship into a dreamy romantic love-making.
3. This made me realize — that most of my counseling-couples had libido-mismatch — earlier I used to guide them without experiencing myself few of the excitements like making your woman have orgasmic-ejaculations.
4. As a result I read-experimented and added sex-therapy for my counseling-clients.
5. But I after the divorce — when I got into a rebound-relationship — I found I have developed erectile-dysfunction and it had the symptoms of become impotent permanently.
6. Because I had the desires at their peak [because of not having enough years of gratifications] — I started experimenting with Ayurveda-Homeopathic-Allopathic and Yoga plus exercises.
7. In almost one year I felt I have been able to reverse the ED.
8. Still looking for that special someone
Reentry in to active revenue-generating stream
1. Lost my savings from abundance to almost zero THREE times — after the death of my 1st wife [when I did not work], after the divorce from my 2nd wife[had to leave everything with her] AND now because Franklin-Templeton closed down their debt schemes AND because no earning — extinguishing the savings for late-life years now.
2. Now at 59 — I am looking for professional-assignments — in a new field — because my earlier experiences, exposures, skills and competencies plus expertise — may or may not be useful for finding something that fits my personality because of changes in the working-environments due to covid19.
3. So looking forward to finding a newer idea — where I am able to add unparalleled Value to stakeholders of my next pursuits
